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A message to my younger self

22nd June 2017 - 6 min read

I just looked at my college graduation pictures 4 years ago (thanks to Facebook). And suddenly my times flew back to my younger self. Today, if I was asked what would be a message for my younger, I would definitely give a bunch of advise. I often shook my head looking at some young women around. Then I realized I’d be no different than all of them if only the social media was as crazy as today. Probably people will roll their eyes at me seeing how dramatic I could had been.

Okay so here we go:

You are special and beautiful as you are

I had my moments, a lot of them, back from elementary school-high school, when I felt discomfort with my own skin. There were always issues with my physical appearance. My hair that was wavy and messy, my skin that was fairly dark, my height that was insufficient compared to the kids around my age. In my country, there was this standard of beauty. Ones have to have white skin, straight black long hair, and tall. I always wished that I was different and tried to change myself to be somebody else.

Growing up, I realized that being confident in my own skin will make me look beautiful anyway. And working in the inside is actually something that I can control while physical is something we were born with. There is nothing more attractive than a confident and kind-warm-hearted person. The moment I surrender and actually feel no longer different but unique/special than other people, it is when I attract other people more. When you accept yourself, you will find peace in life.

Be grateful and always look at the positive

Each day I feel the benefit more and more by praising gratitude. When I was young, I easily got upset and questioned my self-worth just by simple things. Instead of focusing in the negativity and asking what was wrong with me, I’d tell my younger self to not to be self-centered. See the surrounding, open the eyes and be grateful of what you have. Not so many people have the privileges like you. Even being able to breath is a privilege. Every negative mind is a waste of living time. Gratitude makes you happier and it only attracts more and more things to be grateful for. I wish I had started writing down my gratitude journal since I was at school.

Everyday is a good day and validating yourself is also very essentials in order to have a positive mind. I always believe, what we want we will become. By affirming my very self, the brain will work along to achieve it.

Do not get attached to someone/something

I was a kind of girl who would jump from one relationship to another. If I could turn back the time, I would not change it differently. But I wish I had known better that those relationships were wasting my precious time. I guess it’s because I like the feeling to be ‘settled’ and that is really dangerous. That did not make me grow, period. I only wanted to spend times with my exes than doing something worthwhile for my own development. With each of my exes, I thought they would be the one that I invested so many things in them. In fact, I do think it’s much more important to keep up with yourself, to live life and collect as many networks as possible.

The attachment feeling urged me to put other people’s priority on top of me because I was afraid of losing them. Well, now I know that’s better than losing myself.

For the note of the something, we all live in materialistic way nowadays. Yet, the dependency to other things do not bring any goods to us. It gives you worry and the sense of not enough.

Be conscious of who you spend the time with

You are the average 5 people that you spend most of your time with. Make sure you are surrounded by people who lift you up, not bring you down. It certainly was difficult when I was teenager because I did not have any self secure. I kept on trying to have self-actualization from the external and that includes hang out with people I did not enjoy hanging out with. I did not know who I was and what kind of person I wanted to be like, but one thing for sure, you would feel it when you hang out with the right person.

You should not keep friends forever, it’s okay to eliminate them because you also grow as a person. That might sound selfish, but you have to be selfish for yourself. You only live half a second after all.

Never settle down

“If you can’t fly then run, if you can’t run then walk, if you can’t walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.” – Martin Luther King Jr

And that is enough said.

Be independent and love yourself

All the above points have one simple result – A happier life. All those are manifestation of loving your self..



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Cheap weekend getaway

18th March 2017 - 6 min read

Since I am living in Europe, I aim to maximize Europe travel opportunity. Last year I (or now we, with my husband) did not really go in a weekend getaway that often as we were tight in a budget after wedding and homecoming. However this year, we want to start doing it for EU trip again (and some more).

I feel kind of privileged to be living in this continent as it is more accessible and cheaper to go to a lot of the ‘IT’ destinations. One does not have to be rich or working in order to travel, this is also for students. I regret a bit that I did not put travelling in one of my priorities when I was still a student.

That is one of the luxury of of living in the Netherlands is that I am at the heart of Europe.

Paris is just three hours and 20 minutes down the road on the Thalys. London is a 45 minute flight via Easyjet and Koln is also less than three hours away by ICE train.

Cheap weekend getaway should be earned by keeping eyes to the low carrier. Also by checking out what kind of destination options that you want to visit.

There are different low carriers in Europe that can take you to different countries. One of those that I recently used to Krakow, Poland is Ryan Air. The down side for me is, Ryan Air only flies from Eindhoven airport instead of Schiphol. The trip duration from where I live (Amsterdam) is around 1.5 hours which is not bad, but the train ticket is around 25 euro one way (without % discount). At the end, it is not that cheap anymore with extra 50 euros train going back and forth. But, don’t be sad! These days there are options to ride a train cheaply. That is through NS group ticket. Check out in here   And only with that, your time consuming journey will only be worth it.

The Netherlands has five major airports, so pick the one that is most convenient for you when you book your flight.

  1. Eindhoven
  2. Schiphol-Amsterdam
  3. Den Haag-Rotterdam
  4. Groningen
  5. Maastricht

Cheap weekend getaway Netherlands map airportSource:

Some of the cheap ticket besides Ryan Air is easy jet, Transavia, Wow air,  Arke, Corendon, Smartwings. You can check out the skyscanner of low carrier, check it out here

Sometimes you can have a specific goal of destination, but sometimes just randomly browse around. Give no dates and no destinations.

I always check the national holiday far in advance to maximize the usage of my work days off. It can be one of the ways to anticipate the holiday. Travelling comes first!

Cheap weekend getaway does not necessarily mean a trip with airplane, but also a trip by bus or train. In the first years of living in Europe, first destination will be Belgium, Germany, Luxembourg and France. These destinations are better to be reached by train or bus (for Germany and France it depends on which cities you want to go of course).


Cheap Weekend Getaway Europe Map


From my student time, I know it is rather difficult to match your schedule with your friends. And based on my experience, travel with too many people are annoying as opposed to pleasant. And I guess you want to get something from your stay and enjoy your short getaway. In that case, once you have a travel buddy, stick with him/her or if necessary, travel solo. Of course it depends on the security and situation of the places you want to go. When the country is expensive, you can also travel with more people because the sharing cost for car, petrol, or food will be cheaper than travelling solo. But make sure you travel with people who are easy and have same holiday style with you!! You do not want to end up spending unnecessary just because your friend insists to go for fancy dinner whilst casual is okay for you.

There is no reason not to travel when the destinations are in distance. Even some people who live far away make it to Europe, for us who have the privilege, it’s no excuse anymore.

‘Travel is the only thing you buy that makes you richer” – Unknown

Selamat jalan-jalan!
Be courageous! And have a low budget adventure!!!


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2016 Year Review

22nd January 2017 - 6 min read

It has nearly the end of the first month after the whole madness and fireworks celebration of the turning year, in fact we only have 11 more months to go this year. It is no secret that time passes quite rapidly. People say it does when we enjoy what we do. For me, it is both yes and no. Yes because at the moment we have difficulties, the day feels long and short when the other way around. No, because time feels super light speed when it has already passed no matter what you feel on each specific day in the past (exactly what I felt in the New Year’s eve ;)). What I am saying is, time flies anyway, the question is whether we want to look back and make it count or just pass it unconsciously. I think I want to look back and see what I have achieved last year. And as a matter of fact, to be able to achieve what you achieve, you don’t have to particularly enjoy it. Going out from the comfort zone is no enjoyable, but fruitful and we all will be glad eventually that we take risks.

When I thought about it in the New Year’s eve, I felt like I did not do or achieve a lot. But my gratitude journal, my blog, my travel trip has shown differently. I have to say, this is actually one of last year’s important life lesson We are the worse judge of ourselves. I sometimes think that the world or people are against me, that people do things towards me, but in fact they do things for themselves. Of course their actions sometimes make us feel like they’re intentionally targeting us but the reality is they aren’t thinking about you that much, you’re not that special that they would target every action directly toward you. Once I realized that it was easy to move on and focus on my own personal growth and not take everything so personally.

The end of last year, I decided to take the job back from where I was before I moved to TOMS. I had such a big conflict of interest, I was worried people would judge me, would look down on me and all possible thoughts that could possibly happen. It consumed me for quite a while and made me tired, until I realize the above lesson learn. People do not care much about me, they might talk about me, but it’s their concerns, not mine. After all, I felt amazing to be back. Nothing happened as I was worried about. At the end of the day, it’s all about ourselves and what is important for us as long as it is accompanied by relevant values and vision we believe in. And the result is a risk we decide to take.

Another life lesson is, travel and experiences are the best way to spend money . It is memorable and impactful. I did not travel that much last year, but when I saw some images back, I actually kind of did. That is exactly the reason why I always wanted to freeze the memory by keeping a digital album, video, blog and journal. Because I tend to forget things, not that it did not matter, but I just don’t keep up with the little details happened. While these little details are actually a source of gratitude. However, this year, I aim to travel more for the list of destination that has been long awaited. I am so enthusiastic about what life brings and to realize my dreams! I am ready to create a lot of momentum and memorize it.

Last year, I failed doing something that matter to me. A business that has been dear in my heart. I put a lot of things into it, but it just did not work. I think it was not as ready as I wanted it to be, and it is okay. I was upset at first as that was one of my biggest goal last year. However, I shortly realized that I had guts to start it, to do something that I have in my mind. And take chances are one of the most important things happened to me. I learnt from my  mistakes and by doing it I know what I have to anticipate along the way when I start doing it again. I learnt from experiences. I spent not a little money, but I am glad I did, because with it I found out what would not work and what might work.

Lastly, I need to celebrate that I married the man of my dream. Marriage life has not been nothing but pleasant. Yes we have not had our own house, yes we are still figuring out a lot in life, yet I am glad that I go through all this together with a man like Damar. We have hopefully a long time to enjoy the beauty of life together and study in the university of life.

TOAST for a year that has passed and welcome the new year with a long list of goals, vision, and dreams!!! I am so excited as I can be.

There are 2 type of time definition from Newton and Einstein. Newton said time is absolute, Einstein said time is relative. I chose to believe Einstein’s theory. I choose to create my time and its meaning… – MSI 

Love life Quotes Thoughts

Love is a form of nurture part 2

21st November 2015 - 4 min read

What do I know about love? I was wondering myself about it months ago after my breakup. I am not an expert, but I have a certain principle about it. A principle I have acquired from my failed relationships throughout my life so far.

All teenagers are stubborn and unstable. It is part of the journey to discover the true self and which direction we/they want to go. Some people succeeded in starting relationship in their early age, it could last long until marriage and so on. They are the people who have a big portion of compromising skill, usually they are quiet and calm people. I was certainly not that kind of person, I failed many times, going to one relationship to another (as Cansu, my turkish friend, said being a monkey that is moving from one tree to anothers). But that’s part of me finding who I am and what kind of person is compatible with me. I don’t think it’s a waste of time, as long as I consciously walk and not get carried over by what is so called a sense of belonging as it leads to attachment. Attachment and getting too comfortable is very dangerous in the young age, in which I notice as time goes by. Most of the times I failed in a relationship is because we both stopped trying, and I stopped trying just because I was dissapointed many times.

Love ends when one of them or both of them stop trying.

Often people say that we need to love our couple just the way they are as well as the other way around. I used to believe in that and that occurs to me so many times in which in the tip of the relationship one of us take the other half for granted. The tendency after that is that we will stop trying.. Because we feel secure that he/she would not leave us, it is just too comfortable. I read an Indonesian book “Sabtu Bersama Bapak” (Saturday with dad), which I adore the messages it tries to deliver. It somewhat articulate what I have been thinking, and it was also in one of many conversations I have had with Damar.

Indonesian version:

“Membangun sebuah hubungan itu butuh dua orang yang solid. Yang sama-sama kuat. Bukan untuk saling mengisi kelemahan. Karena untuk menjadi kuat adalah tanggung jawab masing-masin orang. Bukan tanggung jawab orang lain”

English version:

“Establishing a relationship needs two solid and equally strong being, not merely mutually to fill in weaknesses. Because being strong is the responsibility of each person. Not someone else’s”

Damar once said, “I do not agree that someone wants to be with me because she needs me“. He also said “It’s each other’s responsibility to keep your other half keeps falling in love with you“. It’s an ongoing and non-stop effort. We need to try, willingly and sincerely. When you unwillingly do something only due to necessity and change you to someone you are not, that is not a good signal…

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Love is a form of nurture 1

21st October 2015 - 7 min read

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question: ‘What kind of man are you looking for?’
She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye & asking, ‘Do you really want to know?’ Reluctantly, he said, ‘Yes.’
She began to expound, ‘As a woman in this day & age, I am in a position to ask a man what can you do for me that I can’t do for myself? I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man… or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, ‘What can you bring to the table?’ The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money. She quickly corrected his thought & stated, ‘I am not referring to money. I need something more. I need a man who is striving for excellence in every aspect of life.
He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, & asked her to explain. She said, ‘I need someone who is striving for excellence mentally because I need conversation & mental stimulation. I don’t need a simple-minded man. I need someone who is striving for excellence spiritually because I don’t need to be unequally yoked…believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster. I need a man who is striving for excellence financially because I don’t need a financial burden. I need someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded. I need someone who has integrity in dealing with relationships. Lies and game-playing are not my idea of a strong man. I need a man who is family-oriented. One who can be the leader, priest and provider to the lives entrusted to him by God.
I need someone whom I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn’t taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive…he just has to be worthy.
And by the way, I am not looking for him…He will find me. He will recognize himself in me. He may not be able to explain the connection, but he will always be drawn to me. God made woman to be a help-mate for man. I can’t help a man if he can’t help himself.
When she finished her spiel, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, ‘You are asking a lot. She replied, “I’m worth a lot”.

The above story is clearly speaking out my mind. After the 3-years relationship separation, I wondered how could I feel he was the one when he was certainly not. I wondered a lot about love. The existence of it..

Finally, I came to a ramble conclusion.
I am a lover. Someone whom hungers for love and whom loves being loved. I’d rather be broken hearted than not expressing the love I have in me. With this feeling, I’ve never did it partially. When I love, I love fully.. And so how it was with my ex(es). I loved and I (thought) I was sure about my feeling.

Apparently, heart and brain are often not aligned. Looking back, I might unconsciously unsure within the relationship, about me and him as a couple. But it seems like I ignored too many red flags until I finally realized. Why was that? Because I held full accountable of my decision to be with them and I wanted to prove my self that I took the right decision to be with him. That’s part of my personality. Devotion…
However, no matter how hard I justified myself about the relationship, the answer from Him at the end was still a ‘no’. It mainly was caused by too many differences. In spite of me being very flexible, I had to compromise, a lot of compromising, a compromise up to the point that I feel I am not being myself anymore. Until I read the above article, I’ve never realized that I had never recognized myself in them. I’ve never felt to not to worry about a thing when I was with them.

I started with love and getting to know them. I naively believe that falling in love is passive and spontaneous. I was wrong. It is much more than that. The euphoria of love fades in a couple of years being together. The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person, it is learning to love the person I find. I don’t need love to be the reason with someone. Love is an active word, a form of nurture. When I feel I could team up with someone, that I recognize myself in him, the love would certainly come along and can easily be nurtured in deepening it.

I value myself too much that makes me selective on how to make a choice for my future life partner. How I choose him depicts how I value myself. I don’t want to settle for less. And nobody should. I need to be with someone who can keep up with me, whom I can look up to and have qualities to enable me showing respect. That man needs to have extraordinary dreams, dreams that can somehow be incorporated with mine. Dreams that can make me make a peace with mine. Someone who loves and able to take care of themselves well. I need a doer. Not because I need them in my life to fulfill my needs, but I need them to match with mine so we can go along side by side together until we reach our goals, together.

Then I can fall in love. Then I can nurture the love continuously.

If you’re young or in your early twenties, focus on shaping your personalities and qualities. It is a manifestation for good choices and a good life in the future..


To be continued..


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The sound of a broken-hearted being

26th July 2015 - 6 min read

Kutipan Peluk (Dewi Lestari dan Aqi)
“… Rasakan semua, demikian pinta sang hati. Amarah atau asmara, kasih atau pedih, segalanya indah jika memang tepat pada waktunya. Dan inilah hatikum pada dini hari yang hening. Bening. Apa adanya.”

Menahun, ku tunggu kata-kata Yang merangkum semua 
Dan kini ku harap ku dimengerti 
Walau sekali saja pelukku
Tiada yang tersembunyi 
Tak perlu mengingkari 
Rasa sakitmu
Rasa sakitku
Tiada lagi alasan
Inilah kejujuran
Pedih adanya 
Namun ini jawabnya
Lepaskanku segenap jiwamu 
Tanpa harus ku berdusta 
Karena kaulah satu yang kusayang
Dan tak layak kau didera
Sadari diriku pun kan sendiri 
Di dini hari yang sepi 
Tetapi apalah arti bersama, berdua 
Namun semu semata
Tiada yang terobati
Di dalam peluk ini 
Tapi rasakan semua 
Sebelum kau kulepas selamanya
Tak juga kupaksakan 
Setitik pengertian 
Bahwa ini adanya 
Cinta yang tak lagi sama
Lepaskanku segenap jiwamu 
Tanpa harus ku berdusta 
Karena kaulah satu yang kusayang 
Dan tak layak kau didera
Dan kini ku berharap ku dimengerti 
Walau sekali saja pelukku

Is love existing??
Now come to think about it, I can’t say if I have ever really loved someone. I had always jumped into one relationship to another, bringing relationship to another level.

When I was in that very moment, I thought I was deeply in love, heart was stolen and eventually taken. But It was not bluntly nor impromptu, there were always factors that support my decision to be their girlfriends at the time. I considered values and things in which I judged could be compatible to me (and often thinking about my family too). But then, after 2-3 years the feeling just faded away.. gone…

Not long after that, there came another men, heart was taken again and I thought I could not live without him. But, at the end that relationship once more faded away and gone………..
Why could it fade when the ultimate love should be staying and eternal?

I think I just did not understand what love is.  
If I did not understand then, what makes me understand now?

Does love exist when you always think about what benefit you could take from them? What value you could share together? Those things should not matter after all when it comes to love, no? At least, that’s how the spread theory that I understood.
I personally don’t think those matter so much from the definition theory of love. Love should be unconditional.

Freud so frequently attributed human nature to unconscious desires, his theory of love centered around the need for an “ego ideal”. His definition of an ego ideal is this: the image of the person that one wants to become, which is patterned after those whom one holds with great respect.
I think he is somewhat true. Although I don’t really agree in the part of ‘the person that one wants to become’, it’s more likely something that you will recognize about you in other people, something that just easily clicks and fits altogether.. And those things you recognize and you want to see in him/her will create respect towards that person.

So when respect is gone equals with love disappearance? Why?

Does love make you stay to take care your husband when they end up in a wheel chair or a commitment you have to deal with?
Love should not lead to a sense belonging or ownership where you think you should control them in a way that you want. Nothing should own no one except love to your very self.

Love supposedly comes naturally..(?) Love supposedly eternal…….(?)
Maybe it’s existing but when it vanishes, then it should not be called love?
Norwegian Wood book says “You would buy a strawberry cake for someone, running in the rain, come back finding out he/she doesn’t want it anymore, and you’re cool with it. You don’t expect something in return”

However, love with parents is different.
We were assigned to a couple whom He chose for us.
Our love is unconditional BASED on thankfulness, a need to make them happy because they made you happy as a child and be raised.
It’s different, because it’s a family and you bond by an unbreakable relationship. No matter how you think you don’t like them, there will always be a slight love and attention. Because you have to…

With someone in the opposite gender, you can break the bond whenever you feel like. Love can vanish.. But it’s A COMMITMENT that hold you tight. Love will vanish.

Ultimate love for me now is to my self (in which I am everyday still learning) and to my God.
Maslow’s hierarchy of needs places self-actualization at the peak. He maintains that those who have reached self-actualization are capable of love.

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Yoga journey – YOGAFEST, June 6th 2015

14th June 2015 - 5 min read


I have been doing yoga for more than 2 years now. It honestly still a long journey to get to a stage that I want to. There are many ups and downs, because I am not constantly practicing. The feeling always comes and goes, but I try to always surround myself with it. I still go to yoga class in my gym at least once a week. I have tried different things in sports, but what stays with me is Yoga. For me it’s an integration between mind, body, and soul. Full package of sports.

In the extent of getting things done, I am not a type of patience girl who takes the process slowly. I feel like I always want to jump to my goal in doing poses (applies to a lot more subjects). I have realized this since day one, that’s why day by day I focus on improving this weakness, to do all my activities more soulful and walk into all the processes consciously. And for yoga, the hardest part is to be careless of how good I am (compared to other people also), and once I pass that, things get easier.

I went to Yogafest in Amsterdam on June 6th, what an event!! I feel back on track, getting all the zens and positive vibes which encourage me to start working on my pose. Especially, I experienced this together with my good good positive and inspiring friends, Cansu and Aida. Nothing better than sharing this happiness with people that I care about. Feel motivated all along!!

Talking about yoga, a few weeks ago, I have a heard a sad story which is about Muslim Organization in Indonesia claiming Yoga as ‘Haram’. Although after reading more thoroughly, it’s considered  Haram only when there’s other intentions in it besides sport. I am moslem myself, but I despise anything that uses one religion as a reason, especially when it potentially breaks relationship between one religion and others even more. If I were a Hindu, it would break my heart because Yoga is pure and very good for our mind, body, and soul. Why sharing good deeds equals with pulling someone off from their religion and convert? For me, Innamal a’malu binniyat (actions are dependent upon the intentions). So I do not really take into account. I purely want to have more focus, know my body and self more, more confident, and be healthy. It actually freshen my mind after praying.

A good thought from MJ from Boys of Yoga that suddenly crossed my path “A lot of people think yoga is like a religion, but the truth is it’s as far away as you ca nget. Religion asks you to narrow your belief; Yoga asks you to open them up”. I really love those quotes.. That’s the whole reason why I do what I do.

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First time succeeded crow pose (Bakasana), then fell down in just a bout 1 sec after the picture taken, the it went for the second time below. Much better 🙂

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Life Quotes Self growth

Paulo Coelhoe – Pilgrimage

13th June 2015 - 3 min read

“We must never stop dreaming. Dreams provide nourishment for the soul, just as a meal does for the body. Many times in our lives we see our dreams shattered and our desired frustrated, but we have to continue dreaming. If we don’t, our soul dies and agape cannot reach it.”

 ” The first symptom of the process of our killing our dreams is the lack of time. The busiest people I have known in my life always have time enough to do everything. Those who do nothing are always tried and pay no attention to the little amount of work they are required to do. They complain constantly that the day is too short. The truth is, they are afraid to fight for the good fight”

The second symptom of the death of our dreams lies in our certainties. Because we dont want to see life as a grand adventure, we begin to think of ourselves as wise and fair and correct in asking so little of life. We look beyond the walls of our day-to-day existence, and we hear the sound of lances breaking, we smell the dust and the sweat, and we see the great defeats and the fire in the eyes of the warriors. But we never see the delight, the immense delight in the hearts of those who are engaged in the battle. For them, neither victory nor defeat is important; what’s important is only that they are fighting the good fight”


“And finally, the third symptom of the passing of our dreams is peace. Life becomes as Sunday afternoon; we ask for nothing grand, and we crease to demand anything more than we are willing to give. In that state, we think of ourselves as being mature; we put aside the fantasies of our youth, and we seek personal and professional achievement.”

– Pilgrimage by Paulo Coelho

Quotes Thoughts

1st April 2014 - < 1 min read

I love see yous and goodbyes.. Because of its existence I could value someone better. Because of its existence I could be certain I get closer to see that person again. -Me-

Safe flight Mama dan Bapak!!

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Catatan 4 Februari

4th February 2014 - 4 min read
teruntuk Wulan Mantik, the soul sister of mine, who always has faith, hope, dream, will

Ketika mata ini menyatu, serupa awan bertautan
Ketika hati ini bertemu, serupa rasa yang mengakar
Mata tidak bertutur nyata, tapi hati melainkan
Serupa jantung yang berdetak
Setiap debar yang jika kau dengar adalah makna
Makna yang indah dan jujur pada satu ritme kehidupan

Ketika mata ini terkelabukan oleh sekasat lihat sesaat
Ketertarikan adalah bias, bias yang seringkali tak bermakna

Perempuan itu memandang sigap perempuan lain yang berbicara, tanpa makna
Ketertarikan tersirat, apakah itu sesaat? apakah itu bias?
Perempuan lain itu menarik.. lipstiknya pun, pula pakaian, tapi acuh
Perempuan ini menyisih, akal sehatnya bekerja menutup pintu hati
Kala itu, hati hanya bertutur, bermakna tapi berjeda karena mata


Perempuan lain itu berputar pada poros hidup
Melepas getir, membuang debu amarah, yang tersisa hanyalah material alami tubuh
Material itu bernama jiwa, berkasta lebih tinggi dari hati dan mata
Ia ada di titik paling tinggi pada level perasaan sesosok manusia
Debu hitam itu telah enyah darinya
Semoga untuk selamanya


Perempuan itu kembali memandang perempuan lain
Dengan mata, hati, ….. dan jiwa, bermakna
Perempuan lain itu menarik.. matanya pun, pula parasnya
Perempuan itu mendekat, jiwanya bekerja
Kala itu, jiwa bertutur makna, tidak lagi ada jarak
Perempuan lain itu menyirat senyum pada indera lihatnya
Mereka pun mendekat bagaikan magnet dan besi
Sesaat hening mereka berjalan dan bertautan
Yang ada hanyalah jiwa yang mengakar, berbicara penuh makna dengan bahasanya
Mereka menjadi satu, hanya mereka yang mengerti
Satu dalam ruang positif dua orang hawa


Mereka hanya perempuan, tapi sangat indah dan menyiratkan maknanya
Jiwa mereka satu, tidak lebih
Tapi satu akan menjadi raksasa jika segala ruang dipenuhi hasrat dan mimpi tulus
Keempat tangan itu bergandengan menyongsong mimpi
Mimpi yang menjadi janji

Karena pada sati sesi hidup mendatang, keduanya akan tersenyum bersama
Menjadi saksi dari ekualitas sebuah mimpi, dedikasi, kepercayaan, dan takdir

Akankah itu terjadi? Jawabannya PASTI..
Perempuan lain itu aku
Aku percaya kau mampu
Aku melihat potensi dan makna itu dari jiwaku, bukan dari mata, bahkan hati
Potensimu menggapai semua mimpi-mimpi itu
Aku berjalan seiring, tapi mengarah ke jalan berbeda
Tapi aku yakin, kita akan ada di pemberhentian yang tak beda, kebahagiaan yang abadi

Selamat ulang tahun, perempuan.. Perempuan hebat yang mampu menaklukan segala apa yang ia ingin, disekitarnya. Perempuan yang melihat dengan tidak hanya mata hati, tapi jiwa yang tulus.

p.s Thank you for discovering me and being my number 1 supporter throughout my journey. Your value will remain. And your value will be forever yours, hold that believe and never forget to work hard and hope. Happy bday 28th, soul sister! I love you more than words can ever explain.